New year, new shoes

If you had asked me before, I would have disagreed. But just today, I realized how important shoes are. I am speaking figuratively here. And why suddenly I wanted a new pair of shoes, a red one, I do not know. I just resolved myself into thinking that: “New year means new shoes. And it has to be red.” I may have subconsciously inculcated Oki’s urge to have a red shoes. She’s been whining about getting a new pair of red shoes since last year and I must have kept it at the back of my head. But I don’t like those girly shoes. I was never a fan of high-heeled shoes. I just want a comfortable shoes like the loafers or sidewalk surfers type.

I was at the university awhile ago and I noticed how instinctively I was looking down while walking at the hallway to look at the students’ shoes. Most of them have new shoes. Must be their Christmas gifts. There were loads of red shoes! =)

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I am imbibing this mantra (came from a P. Coelho book):

“When you go after what is IMPORTANT for you in life, don’t take NO for an ANSWER!”

I am NOT taking NO for an answer. Aja!

Momentous

It wasn't really much the words you said or the actions that you've been trying hard to put up...rather those little actions such as a brief smile or an instinctual frown that make all the difference. I must tell you, I am no good in reading between the lines. So please, if you need to tell them in words, stop winding and just say it

PHOTO: I love this photo. Just because it reminds me of the word "momentous". I don't need to further explain do I? Yes, I am a sucker for those little, meaningful smiles. :-D

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[postscript:]

ang hirap palang mag-maintain ng expectations. lalo na kung ang expectation ay masyadong mataas. pero higit na mahirap yung expectations na sinet ko sa sarili ko pero hindi ko na-meet. ayaw kong sabihing "wag na lang mag-expect para di ma-disappoint" kase hindi naman ganoon ang buhay. kahit ayaw mo, mag-eexpect ka at magse-set ka ng mga standards. hindi totoo yung "taong walang expectations" siguro yung iba, masyado lang "realistic" kaya madaling ma-meet. pero siguro mas mabuti nang mag-expect at masaktan kaysa maging safe habang buhay.

may nagsabi sa 'kin dati. "alam mo Rayts, kapag lagi kang bumabagsak, may time na di mo na mararamdaman ang sakit. pero pag nakabangon ka at nagwagi, ang sarap ng feeling kase mas na-aapreciate mo yung achievement mo gaano man ito kaliit." hmmm. may punto siya.

Perhaps the truth depends on what is not out there

I will not be here for awhile.

When I come back, I hope my hair is shorter.

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