it's almost not happening, but it's there. and for once, i made myself believe that i deserve that little moment of "peace".
i got the 'relief' i wanted. just from a two-line text that says: "i am just here. if you need a shoulder to cry on." unexpectedly, i didn't know it would come from him.
so i retorted a joke: "when i do, i cry a river, and i usually dislocate the shoulder i cry on."